The Grand Experiment

It has long been my goal to ‘understand’. I have been victimized by my sensitivity and in an effort to minimize my suffering at my own hand, I have learned the hard way to eat right, exercise etc. I have also learned how the universe functions. But I wonder, does knowing this actually mess up the grand experiment of life? If we are down here to see what it’s like to be separate, to be an individual, then am I screwing it up by carrying around with me the knowledge that I am in fact perfect, whole and holy? I am aware that I don’t need to worry about anything but at the same time, I refrain from doing things b/c I can see potential suffering via attachment. AM I WASTING MY OPPORTUNITY SIMPLY BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO SUFFER??? This is an important question to ask. I wonder if that’s what some of the homeless types or nutjobs do? Hmm…